You know it does feel sucky when you called out to a friend and she just blatantly ignores you. I mean, at least tell me to wait or acknowledge my presence or something. Unless either I'm so insignificant and inferior that you feel that there is no need to acknowledge me or you are plain deaf.

Either way, I guess it doesn't really hurt me as much as it used to. Things get numb after a while yeah, when you became used to something. Somethings like not getting noticed, always being the spare and always being alone. Turns out that I'm just this piece of imaginary thing floating around. I'm literally always invisible.

Alone isn't all that bad actually. It let me think about stuff like universe and stuff that won't happen but nice to imagine all the same and stuff that is complex and cool and stuff. See, not all that bad right? The thing is, people always take being lonely as a bad thing. But sometimes its the best thing out there. Sometimes. It slow paces down for you to realise other things. Being invisible can be helpful too. You listen, you observe. Those info come in use at times.

But that doesn't mean I enjoy all that. A bit yes. But not too much. When you actually want to establish a point and no one hears you out probably because you always talk crap and nonsense nobody even take you seriously anymore---

Well that is crappy