Hello readers

Do you ever have that feeling when you have to make a life-determining decision that would probably affect your entire life, and yet you have no idea how to choose. There are several path laid before you, each with a different outcome. Choose the right one and life would be an adventure, a breeze, or a perfect-ending fairy tale. But choose the wrong one and everything would go spiraling down a dark vortex, and you'll be stuck in a pitch black tunnel with no light ahead. If there is it will be an oncoming train :/

Oh otherwise you can also have a nice mundane life where nothing happens. I don't want that...

That is the terror I am experiencing right now. There is a constant conflict in my heart of whether I should become an artist or get a secure job like my peers. Assuming that a decent life for me in future wouldn't be a challenge, what I have to decide now is whether I want an exciting one, or a comfortable one. Doubtless both will make me happy, but one could be regretful. I don't want to spend my last breath looking back at my life and wondering what had I existed for, whatever was the meaning of it.

Such promising potential buried within me, waiting to be discovered. But will I actually be able to excavate it without even knowing what it is?

So instead of choosing I am now deluding myself by convincing everything will turn out fine, which most probably will not if I don't do anything about it. Hurhhurh